say what?

i've been debating whether or not i wanted to post about this... at least, whether or not i wanted to post about this now. after a good chunk of time out and about this morning, i've decided that it would be a good thing to get this out and written. so here goes it.
i've entered a world of uncertainty. actually, it's more like i've entered a world of more opportunities. those who know me know that i like to be positive about things. i like plans, i like thinking ahead, i like knowing the answer. if i can't achieve one of those things, i won't stop until it's settled. and once i settle something, i tend to convince myself that what i have decided is the end-all solution... the conclusion... something that is lasting... checked off my list, never going back to that question again.
for example--college. i had decided to go to calvin way earlier than most normal people choose their place of higher education. i was set. the question of "where to go to college" had the answer of "calvin."
so you can get the picture of the type of person i am. when it comes to making a decision and sticking to it, i am no piece of velcro caught on a fuzzy piece of a decision. in fact, i'd say that i am more like a tooth deeply rooted in the gums of youthful dreams.
by no means am i saying anything about youthful dreams... it's just that i am still rather young, and so my hopes and desires and plans are still a bit youthful. there's also nothing wrong with being deeply rooted. in fact, if you are rooted into something that coincided with God's desires for you, then you're set.
But.
If you find yourself rooted in something that comes from a purely inward point of view--not taking into account any other factors, something that is in the end, not meant to be--then there is something you ought to know. it takes an even stronger force to overcome one's vise grip on wayward plans. it takes a bigger thing to separate such a strong attachment. it takes more than a simple tug at velcro stuck to fuzz in order to pull a tooth away from gums. often times, what it takes, is a closed door.
exhibit A:

so, what tooth am i pulling? and what door closed?
be ware... it's gonna shock you. in fact, it still shocks me. but i will go through the story give you all a clear picture of what's going on.
there's really no way of starting it without giving it away straight from the beginning, so i guess i have to just get on with it.
well, you know how i am currently a PE major?
see, that gave it away pretty fast. one sentence, and y'all already are gasping because i am seriously considering a change in my major... and consequently, career path.
so here's the story. i can't quite remember if i vented about my issues in struggling with registering for this coming semester. but here's what happened. in the PE program, there is a pretty strict order to follow--as you've got half the classes spring only, half the classes fall only, and classes needing to be in a certain order due to pre-requisites and what-not. so, the two PE classes i needed to register for were closed. both my petitions to get into the classes were denied, as was my petition directly to the registrar. due to the connection of me being in these classes and me graduating in four years, there should have been no problem getting in... especially since there aren't many pe majors. however, by the end of it all, i was left without a single pe class and about 6 credits too short.
i got to california after the school year was over and decided to pick a minor... which many of you know is journalism. i registered for a journalism class (which was actually closed... but my petition to get in was granted in less than 24 hours).
you all know that much... here's the new stuff.
upon researching the journalism minor, i came across the business communications group major... described, in short, as follows: Advertising, public relations, sales, marketing, business writing, events planning, human resources, project management, and much more.
i clicked on it, read more, and became interested. then i read more, and became even more interested. something kept bringing me back to this business communications major... something got me thinking... something about it just sounded so right.
lets recap.
i went in to calvin deciding to be a pe major... i scoffed at every single statistic that said the odds were against me in actually graduating with the major that i started out with ( i believe it is 70% that change their major)... i always made the point to encourage people to study something they loved, not just something they knew would get them a career.... i also thought that it was just so convenient that what i loved would so easily get me a career.
but then, it happened... those two pe classes i couldn't get in to. i think of that and i hear two doors closing. i get in to a journalism class and a business communications class... is that a door i hear opening?
so that's the situation, more or less. i am trying as hard as i can to not make any decisions right now. i'm thinking this is a good opportunity to work on my patience, work on my listening skills, and work on trusting.
i actually really have to go right now, but i am sure there will be more to say in the future.
tootles