RE-ING

the 23rd... marks two months... two whole months. i really can't believe how fast it has gone, and how much has happened.
awesome road trip cross the country complete with cows and roadkill, retracing half the trip on route to wyoming where i'd summit a mountain, time in michigan with friends, time in michigan without friends, exploring... so much.
it will probably be one of the times in life that i look back on and know that it was such an incredibly awesome experience and time. although the me on the night before orientation would have disagreed whole-heartedly, the me now says that i would not trade a single part of this summer... including the hard stuff. i've loved it so much cause, i just think about it, and all of it, every aspect of it... it's life. and the fact that that's life is just so awesome...
life. i am living life.
in fact, the hard stuff is where i learned (well, duh).
and the cool part, is that the stuff ain't over... causing the "learned" to change to "learning."
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did you know that the book of ruth does not mention God at all... not even once in the entire book. i learned this at church a few weeks ago. however, that doesn't mean that God wasn't present at that time...He was just hidden. there is a huge difference between 'hidden' and 'absent.' you have to be present to be hidden... and God was not absent. so even though the book ruth doesn't say 'God' in it, He's there, He's working.

it's during times of transition, times of change that it's quite common to feel that God is absent. but you know what, it's during those times that we get to re-discover who God is.
i've got a whole bunch of stuff to go with this, but i'm going to skip it for the sake of length...

so on a personal note, that's part of what this summer has been about...re-discovering. it's also been about re-learning, realizing, retracing, reminding, re-thinking, re-reading,... re-ing. all of that put together has brought out a lot of growing.

but you want to know the cool part? the part the gets me really excited? actually two parts...
1) RE- means i am doing it again... and guess what... i'm probably going to do it again.... and again... and i am bound to do it again.
2) ING- means it's happening now... and to make beth moore proud, it's a present active participle... meaning it's continual, constantly going on. not finite.

put those together and it means that this doesn't end with the summer's end... all that stuff, and more doesn't end.

and do you know what that means? that this... this RE-ING is what life is all about. it's never done... there's always room for more to learn or more to discover or more to believe, about God, about yourself, abut life in general. it also assures, nay guarantees(haha, i have always wanted to use "nay") that we will have times where we won't be so sure, and that's where we go back and RE. that's life.

i can't get exactly what i have in my head out in words... but in my head, it just makes me think,"isn't that downright incredible?"

life is re-ing.

life is good.



comprende? honest, it makes sense in my heart and head.
i dunno.

on another note...
2 months without golden spoon... lifetime record for me, even if it is against my will.